Paradox
Was crossing the road earlier on when coming to work when I realised that the cars which have stopped at the junction about 20metres away have started to move off. Was about to increase my pace to cross the road when in the split second I decided to stop in my tracks. Then an instinct urge me on and I ran across the road, just in time to miss a few cars. No doubt that the cars would probably not have hit me, since its bright daylight and they could see me perfectly well. However, I realised, there are times which call for a decisive, immediate and instinctive action. Indeed that is exactly what I need at the moment.
I’am currently in a stalemate position in a "so called" argument with a friend. Well, perhaps it ain’t really considered an argument as of yet. Since what we have done is to merely dished out our individual unhappiness towards the other party. Anyway, I’am in a situation which I do not know how and whether to proceed.
B’cos? Well, b’cos
1. If I proceed with the argument and argue my hearts out, the friendship would definitely take a turn for the worse.
2. If I do not proceed with the argument, I would be so bottled up as there are really some points which I would want to raise it up.
Looks simple? Perhaps not.
Firstly, the background leading to the argument itself is confusing. In fact, if I substitute this fren of mine for another into the same scenario, I am pretty confident that no such scenarios would have arisen at the first place.
Secondly, either one party is acting blur or perhaps both party is acting blur at the same time. The main agenda driving behind the scene has absolutely nothing to do with the argument itself. In fact, the argument is really a lousy makeshift smokescreen to conceal the actual problem which is ever present.
Thirdly, what’s there to explain and when the crux of the argument is something which is to be kept under wraps. Thus, there is seriously nothing to explain my weird behaviour or actions except the truth itself. Since the truth can’t be shown, what else can be done except to say even more weird stuff which I myself are not convinced. What’s the point then.
Okay, maybe it is just me who have made the problem look so complex, but nonetheless, the time has come for more decisive actions. One which I would say, the friend of mine have already taken a couple of months back, in certain sense. I guess its now my turn to walk that path as well.
I must say, I have really tried my best, but I have failed. So I guess, the time has come for more drastic action to be taken. Do believe me that I treasure your friendship and companionship more than anything. I truly appreciate that. Believe me.
