Kerr’s Universe

Nearly a week has passed since I last blogged. Had been tied down with work now that the due date for presidential election is closing in. Everyone’s kinda jumpy lately, due to a series of unfortunate events within the department. So, I, being a part of the family, wasn’t taking all this too easy, and seriously making every effort to ensure that murphy’s theory doesn’t materialise.

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Didn’t have much of a weekend lately. Due to the National Day event, which saw 3 National education shows even before the preview as well as the actual thing, I have been spending quite a good portion of my weekends in town. Yeah, right in the heart of the city within the citilink underpass. By the time I reached home, its usually time for bed and waking up to a late sunday doesn’t help alleviate the situation much. Soon, it would be time for my aikido class and well, that’s about it for this few weekends so far. Sounds pretty boring isn’t it? It sure is.

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Not many blog worthy events took place over the last week anyway. Though, thanks to my new Civil Service Card, which in itself has a tapz card function, like our ezlink card. It has somehow conflicted with my ezlink card which has actually resulted in quite an embarrased situation for me when I took the bus to work the other day. Shan’t repeat it again, as it seriously wasn’t too great an incident for me.

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For now…here’s some jokes which most of you would have read before. But since I have nothing much to contribute for the moment. I guess, this should suffice. Cheers and may all who read this blog have a good week ahead! Ganbatte!

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These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts and are things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters who had the torment of biting their lip to stay calm while these exchanges were taking place.

Q: Are you sexually active?

A: No, I just lie there.

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Q: When is your birthday?

A: July 15.

Q: What year?

A: Every year.

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Q: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?

A: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.

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Q: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?

A: Yes.

Q: And in what ways does it affect your memory?

A: I forget.

Q: You forget? Can you give us an example of something that you’ve forgotten?

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Q: How old is your son, the one living with you?

A: Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I can’t remember which.

Q: How long has he lived with you?

A: Forty-five years.

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Q: What was the first thing your husband said to you when he woke up that

morning?

A: He said, "Where am I, Cathy?"

Q: And why did that upset you?

A: My name is Susan.

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Q: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo or the

occult?

A: We both do.

Q: Voodoo?

A: We do.

Q: You do?

A: Yes, voodoo.

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Q: Now doctor, isn’t it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn’t know about it until the next morning?

A: Did you actually pass the bar exam?

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Q: The youngest son, the twenty-year-old, how old is he?

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Q: Were you present when your picture was taken?

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Q: So the date of conception of the baby was August 8th?

A: Yes.

Q: And what were you doing at that time?

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Q: She had three children, right?

A: Yes.

Q: How many were boys?

A: None.

Q: Were there any girls?

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Q: How was your first marriage terminated?

A: By death.

Q: And by whose death was it terminated?

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Q: Can you describe the individual?

A: He was about medium height and had a beard.

Q: Was this a male, or a female?

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Q: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition which I

sent to your attorney?

A: No, this is how I dress when I go to work.

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Q: Doctor, how many autopsies have you performed on dead people?

A: All my autopsies are performed on dead people.

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Q: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK?

A: Yes.

Q: What school did you go to?

A: Oral.

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Q: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?

A: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.

Q: And Mr. Dennington was dead at the time?

A: No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy.

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Q: Are you qualified to give a urine sample?

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Q: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?

A: No.

Q: Did you check for blood pressure?

A: No.

Q: Did you check for breathing?

A: No.

Q: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the

autopsy?

A: No.

Q: How can you be so sure, Doctor?

A: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.

Q: But could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?

A: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive, practicing law

somewhere.

"You like to eat a burger doesn’t mean that you want to meet the cow" - from the show ‘The Island’

Just caught the show last night and I think that its a great show! Action packed, pretty gal and interesting plot with a touch of controversial. What more can you asked for? Well, though the ending is a bit sucky, overall, its really a great show. Go catch it! (okay, some of you must be wondering once again how much I getting for advertising this show)

I was talking to a fren who has recently broken up his girlfriend. Well, apparently, the 2 of them are still going out on a regular basis. So, I enquired about the state of things between them and he stated that the 2 of them are good friends now but there’s nothing more ot it than that.

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Of course, being a "brother" with this guy friend of mine, I know that he still has feelings for the gal and its really not the ‘nothing more than that’ as he has indicated, well, unless he’s speaking for his ex, that is something which I wouldn’t know. Anyway, I decided to probe a bit further.

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Me: So, you guys still talk to each other and goes out every now and then, but who’s calling who and who’s asking who out?

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Fren: Well, usually I will be the one who would call her.

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Me: Does she call you or ask you out?

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Fren: Hmm…usually no.

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Me: Don’t you feel tired? or weird, or sian, since it would appear that you are the only one giving all the effort unilaterally.

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Fren: Aiya, I just go out lor, didn’t think so much into it.

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Me: So what happens when she get attached next? Have you thought about it?

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Fren: Wait until then, then I’ll think about it.

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I wondered in silence, is this really wise? You have already broken up once and that has already cause u much heart ache. Now that you apparently still have feelings for her, do u really want to subject urself to one more round of pain? Or perhaps you could really get over her soon with such an arrangement?

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The answer is obviously no for me, but perhaps my fren, who is much more optimistic than me, could stomach all this. I didn’t probe any further, since there is obviously no answer to all this and everyone cope with things differently.

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However, lately, I can sense that the latent anger within me has once again started to build up. While I know what is to be done, I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Why?

Just read this off a friend’s page. Found it to be very interesting. I guess I just enjoy melancholic stuffs. Maybe I should try to write a tune for it.

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If you see me walking the road with someone else,
It’s not because I like his accompany…
Its because you’re not brave enough to walk beside me.
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If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you’re too deaf to hear my heartbeat
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If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..
But because you’re not there to catch me fall
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If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don’t know where the road is going
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Are we gonna cross each other’s path
Or just completely turn around?..
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Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
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Don’t let me walk with him,
It’s you I want to walk with..
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Don’t let me talk of him,
it’s you I want to talk with..
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Don’t let me fall for him,
It’s you I want to fall in love with…

Okays, for disclaimer sake, this entry has absolutely nothing to do with that cheesy book nor would it help you to get over the "emotional barrier" of the lost of your glass of beer at a pub.

Well, indeed, it was the first time that something like that has happened to me at a pub (club). Not that we have never experienced mixed identities of our spirits, but I’am pretty sure no one would dare to drink from an unknown cup without first establishing its owner, for the simple fact of the numerous number of hep & other diseases carriers. Furthermore, the drink could be spiked for all you know. Bottomline is, one don’t usually go into the pub and picked up a glass which is left on the table and drink it. Or perhaps they do???

Anyway, it has finally happened. Last night. At Union Square. Some idiot took my beer away. Absolutely, without a trace. I had just ordered the drink, had a few mouthful and left it on the table and went to dance. When I’am back, in like what, 10 minutes later, it was gone! all gone! Well, at least my cigarettes are still intact.

Met a colleague on the way out of office after work today. She started complaining how "badly" I have treated her as my department slotted her name in for a 4 days tactical course. Well, basically its a course that involves quite a bit of physical exertion and time spent under the hot sun. (at least it has been raining quite a bit lately)

Well, perhaps in retaliation, she started commenting on my shirt. New shirt in fact, just bought it on Monday.

Guess the colour didn’t exactly turn out well in this photo, but its kinda more on the green side of things. Okay, here goes. She described the shirt as "Yao1 yan4", briefky translate into "flamboyant". Well, more to the negative sense though…hmm…seriously dun tink so leh. What’s wrong with this shirt? I thought the colour combination was pretty nice. In fact, I guess I probably be filling my wardrobe with shirts like this in the near future. Single colour are just too dull for the moment. Well, wearing brighter colours do make you happier…to a certain extent (there’s just so much a piece of cloth can do for you). Better than nothing, I would say!

Well anyway, went out to shop for clothes earlier on. Damned, it is so difficult to find a piece of cloth that fits nicely. Somehow, the dimensions just don’t seem right these days.

Anyway, still can’t figure out why gals enjoy shopping. It was nearly a chore for me when I was browsing through the rows and rows of T-shirts @ 37 degrees. After browsing through about 30 T-shirts in the first row, I was ready to give up. My mind just couldn’t arrive at a logarithm or a systematic way of eliminating the numerous choices. The majority number of T-shirts on display wasn’t particularly interesting or well, it didn’t exactly suit my taste but at the same time, I was afraid I might miss one which I like and this 2 thoughts just didn’t really gel too well together. I was like "Oh man, is there a more effecient way of doing this" Do I really need fate for me to come across the "clothes of my life" like how it always happen in the past. Well, anyway, fate didn’t knock on my door today and so I didn’t buy any in the end. Nothing seems to appeal to me. Sian! Getting really tired of wearing the same clothes over and over again. I think my colleagues probably can name all the clothes that I have in my wardrobe at the moment.

Well, so be it for the moment. Shopping is really a waste of time, espcially when you can’t find anything to buy in the end. Luckily I was born a guy. No offence, ladies, at least its a common sport which majority of you really enjoy. Speaking of which, I rather accompany someone on a shopping trip than do my own, cos somehow or rather, I always managed to find something that I like when I’am helping others shop. Always happen when I was shopping with my ex previously. When I accompany her on her shopping trip, it is usually me ending up buying something and sometimes she goes home empty handed. Strange indeed. So I guess shopping is the same as love ah, it comes knocking on the door when you least expects it….hahaha…

A song which never did fail to evoke hidden emotions and feelings.

How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we’ve shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there’s just an empty space
And there’s nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there’s just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that’s what I’ve got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry
There’s so much I need to say to you,
So many reasons why
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there’s just an empty space
And there’s nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there’s just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all I can do and that’s what I’ve got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos I’ll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It’s the chance I’ve gotta take

Take a look at me now

First of all, I must thank my friend who had suggested watching this show for recommending it. It is a great show and I really enjoyed it. Thanks! Seriously a very nice movie which one should watch. In fact, it is so nice that I would give an account of the entire movie.

The show started with a grown teenage preparing breakfast (frying sunny side egg) for his dad and himself, then a cake arrived at the door. The person delivering the cake informed that though his bakery is closing down soon, he was happy that he actually fulfiled his promise (what promise, nobody knows at this point in time). Then the grown teenage rode off for school and along the way, he came across a tunnel and started recounting a story.

The story starting with the passing of someone, Yuji’s mother - Mio. Yuji’s mother had died when Yuji was 5 years old. Somehow, before she died, she left behind a picture book for Yuji’s depicting that she has gone to "The archive star" and would return in the rainy season.

Father and son continued to live their life in this house which is located in this beautiful woods of the suburbs in a small town. It was a very heartwarming scene of father and son trying to pull their life together. The father was trying his best to bring up his son single handedly and Yuji was a really sensible kid for his age who was accomodating to his father obvious flaws in cooking.

One year then passed after the death of Mio and the rainy season arrived when Mio suddenly returned to them, with her memory all lost when Father and son went into an abandon house near their house which was the playground for Yuji.

As Mio has lost all her memories, Taku started recounting his account of their love story. Taku and Mio were classmates in High school. Although they were somehow seated next to each other for the 2 years in school, Taku, being an introvert and an obviously shy person did not dare approach Mio or talked to her though he had fallen for her in every aspect. The only thing which Taku was into then was track n field and after losing out in a competition due to a foul committed by another player on the field, he started training really hard and finally got himself a sports scholarship to study in a local U. However, he felt that his love for Mio was unrequited as he was definitely not the type of guy which Mio would fall in love with. Mio was going off to Tokyo for studies and just before leaving, Mio went up to Taku and asked him to sign her autobiography book and somehow Taku left his pen behind with her as Mio ran off with the book when Taku returned it to her.

After a year or so, Taku somehow found out that Mio has came home from Uni and decided to asked her out. However, it was only after a few attempts before he could muster up his courage and using a really lousy excuse of asking her to return him his pen that he got Mio to come out. Initially, after Mio has returned the pen, Taku did not know what to say and simply bidded goodbye. But once again, he found courage and asked Mio out for a date. Their very first date after so long. During the date, Taku rant on without stopping as he was afraid Mio might want to leave, should the conversation stop and so he went on. It would appears that Mio did have some feelings for Taku as they started  corresponding in letters after their first date.

However, things were not to be, Taku had over strained his body by overtraining himself and he collapsed. In fact, he had developed a rare syndrome whereby he could no longer exert himself and would be overwhelmed when he is in the midst of a crowd. Thus, due to this, he dropped of school and became more pessimisstic than he already was. He felt that he would be a burden to Mio and for her happiness, they should not be together. Thus, he decided to disappear from the life of Mio. Of course, he couldn’t stand the fact of not seeing her, and thus, decided to pay her a visit in Tokyo. His journey was an ardous and straining one, due to the rare syndrome that he had. However, he was determined to see Mio. Alas, he caught sight of another guy who was after Mio and decided that he was definitely not good enough for her and left in tears. Well, things took a turn for the better when out of the blue, Taku received a phone call from Mio who asked to meet up with him. At the meeting, Taku revealed the reason for his actions but was reassured by Mio that everything was alright and that they were meant to be together. And so, the 2 loving couple got married and gave birth to Yuji and live happily ever after. Of course, for the next 8 years before Mio passed away.

Throughout Mio stay with Yuji and Taku, though she has lost her memory, she had came to love them, in fact, it was like rediscovering or relearning a lost love. Of course, happiness is never everlasting, somehow, Mio found a time capsule in which she and her son had buried together. In it, contains her diary, which somehow revealed her passing away and from reading the picture book which she left for her son, she understand that she would be leaving with the passing of the rainy season. And so, as Mio seems to be able to sense her impending passing once again, she started preparing Yuji for it. She taught him how the general chores and tasks in the house can be performed, including how to fry a sunny side egg properly and started a plot of sunflower in the garden.

Both father and son of course also had the same concern, whether his wife and his mommy would leave them in time to come, they were sad, but they hide their sadness and cherished every moment which they have left with Mio.

And so came the end of the rainy season. As much as Mio has sensed it, she decided to celebrate Yuji’s birthday, even though it was one week earlier. She went to this bakery in town and bought yuji a cake. Then, an idea struck upon her. She then placed an order for a cake to be delivered to Yuji for the next 12 years, until Yuji turns 18. And so, with the cake and a sumptous meal prepared, Yuji celebrated his 6 years old birthday. Taku seems to sense that something was wrong, but did not say a word. The following day, as sudden as it has arrived, the rainy season came to an end and Mio had to leave.

Once again, Mio has left the lives of Taku and Yuji and Taku decided to read Mio’s diary. In it, Taku found Mio’s account of their love story.

It was love at first sight when Mio met Taku. Similarly to Taku, though she sat right next to him, she was so shy and did not make any moves. She was always looking out for him in school but thinking that her love would be unrequited as she was quite sure Taku would not fall in love with her. During the competition where Taku lost due to a foul play by another player, Mio was so angry that she actually went and shut of the mains for all electricity in the stadium during the medal presentation. She has found her courage simply because she was madly in love with Taku. Using her power as a student councillor in school, she got herself fixed to sit right next to Taku for the 2nd year to come. However, she was still very shy and did not do anything. Then came the bidding of farewell at the end of high school. Mio finally muster enough courage and went forward and asked Taku to sign her autobiography book. She was overjoyed when she realised that Taku has felt very comfortable sitting right next to her for the past 2 year. Then she realised that Taku has not taken by his pen but decided to keep it, so that she could see him again. Similar to Taku, Mio could not muster up the courage to call Taku initially and thus, was overjoyed when Taku called her and asked her out. When Taku asked her out for a date after the returning of the pen, she was overjoyed. During the date, though Taku ranted on without her being able to say anything, she was filled with joy and wished that the moment would never come to an end. Then came the exchange of the letters and Taku’s sudden withdrawal which Mio could not make sense of. Then came the part where Taku went to the University to look for Mio. In fact, Mio actually caught sight of him and went after him, but ended up being hit by a vehicle and became unconscious. During the period where she was unconscious, Mio saw the future, the future of her getting married to Taku, giving birth to Yuji, leading a happy life and dying at the age of 28 and also of her return back their life a year later during the rainy season.

And so she pondered after leaving the hospital. Should she go ahead an pursue such a future which she knows that she would pass away in time to come or one which does not have Taku inside, but perhaps she would not have died at such a young age. And there, she decided that the path was to be with Taku as that was the person she loved and the future which she had already seen is the one which she had always wanted. Taku was her soul mate.

And thus, it was love at first sight for the both of them, who have found each other.

Well, the show has definitely brought out a lot of emotions in me. I came to realise that the harsh reality of life has made me more of a realist in recent times than the idealists or rommantist which I once were. But deep down inside, I realised, it has not change. The romantised view of love and the urge and desire to be in a fulfilling and everlasting relationship has not dampen a single bit. I will not relent and bow down to life once again.

Was talking to a friend last night. Somehow touched on the topic of the lessons in life. Something which I have come to believe in recent years. I was proposing that everything that happens in life is trying to teach us something. Something which perhaps you would probably require in life later, perhaps not immediately, but certainly at some point in time. Thus, it is also possible that there are recurrence lessons manifest in different format if you haven’t learn your lesson well in the previous scenario where it presented itself. Okay, let’s not make it so difficult. Think of it as a remedial, detention class or even repeating your grades when you don’t make the mark.

It all started when things doesn’t go well and I was trying to make sense at why certain things happen in a certain way. The only consolation that I could find was that it was trying to teach me something. Indeed, it could just be me trying to make sense of things that is happening, or a particular character flaw that I would always react the same way even in different situation that would have caused things to turn out in exactly the same way, the way which I did not want. However, in another perspective, it could also be that life is giving you a chance once again to learn what you have failed to earlier.

If you are somehow given a scenario which kept ending the way that you do not want it to be, and you know how you would react, given the same conclusion, wouldn’t it appears that life is de javuing itself so that you would learn. Of course, there are certainly other plausible explanation on this, but this is how I see it.

The fearful thing now is that is this lesson so important that I have to learn it. Is there a much greater trial in life in front of me that I have to learn this lesson, by hook or by crook so that I would be ready when the time comes.

Or Perhaps, I have just been watching too many anime….:) I certainly hope the latter is true.

Would you agree that "Ignorance is bliss"? Well, I do, but perhaps I should qualify myself. Ignorance is definitely not bliss when it comes to work, study or even general knowledge. In fact, I don’t think that this phrase was even created at the first place for the above mentioned categories.

Well, the reasoning is simple. Why subject yourself to more anger, pain, hurt, jealousy or uncertainty than what is required. Shield yourself from all these negative information and you may find life a bit more bearable. Sound like an escapist to you, well, not exactly. Unlike the escapist who reacts upon receiving those information, we are taking proactive step so that we do not even have to run at the first place. "Things that you don’t know, doesn’t hurt you".